A couple of years ago I started this blog because it was supposed to be motivation to reach a goal. As of today the only goal I have reached is NOTHING. I have not changed on thing about my unhealthy lifestyle. I can get motivated for a few days and then I allow something to take me off my course.
I was doing TaeBo at the beginning of the year. I, with a few friends, had created a weight loss support group. We were all writing down the process so in the event it worked we could possibly sale the idea and make a few bucks. Week one I was in it to win it!!!! Daily support messages, open forum , motivational quotes, etc. I was going to be the motivator; because I was finally ready to do what needed to be done to lose this weight.......yeah we see how well that worked. I ended up getting a job and the text messages stopped and so did the group. I think we all are still "committed" to losing weight, we all just are lacking in the motivation department.
A couple of weeks ago my daughter and I decided we were going to put in Zumba2 , for the Wii, and do our thing. The first night it was fun. I was sweating up a storm....getting 5 stars and stuff. Woke up the next morning sore and proud. Look at me I thought, I'm really going to get this weight off this time. Next night I came home, Bree was ready and we completed another 30 minute session. Day 3 I was really feeling it; my entire core hurt but this time my neighbor came over and we really had a ball. I was able to push a little harder because we were all laughing so hard at the lack of coordination that no on realized we were working out. Night 4 my sides were really sore so I decided that I was going to take the night off. That was a big mistake. It has been 3 weeks since then and I have not Zumba-ed since.
My problem is not that I do not have desire, it's that I don't display the discipline I once showed as a child. The summer before 12th grade exercise was all that I could think about. I got up each morning and went for a 1 hour walk , eat decent meals all day, TaeBo(on VHS) in the evenings and topped the night off with 50 crunches. I was a machine!!!! I walked back first day smaller than I had been when I started high school. I of course did not keep those habits up and now look at me.
Overweight, unhappy and tired of being tired about being fat.
I was talking to my best friend the other day and decided that I was not going to talk about losing weight anymore. I was going to get off my ass and do something about it and let my new body do all the talking. I have very understanding and supportive friends but I know they are tired of hearing me talk how I'm going to do this, that, and the 3rd and then I actually gain weight!!! I mean come the fuck on...enough is enough right?
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A couple of weeks ago my daughter and I decided we were going to put in Zumba2 , for the Wii, and do our thing. The first night it was fun. I was sweating up a storm....getting 5 stars and stuff. Woke up the next morning sore and proud. Look at me I thought, I'm really going to get this weight off this time. Next night I came home, Bree was ready and we completed another 30 minute session. Day 3 I was really feeling it; my entire core hurt but this time my neighbor came over and we really had a ball. I was able to push a little harder because we were all laughing so hard at the lack of coordination that no on realized we were working out. Night 4 my sides were really sore so I decided that I was going to take the night off. That was a big mistake. It has been 3 weeks since then and I have not Zumba-ed since.
My problem is not that I do not have desire, it's that I don't display the discipline I once showed as a child. The summer before 12th grade exercise was all that I could think about. I got up each morning and went for a 1 hour walk , eat decent meals all day, TaeBo(on VHS) in the evenings and topped the night off with 50 crunches. I was a machine!!!! I walked back first day smaller than I had been when I started high school. I of course did not keep those habits up and now look at me.
Overweight, unhappy and tired of being tired about being fat.
I was talking to my best friend the other day and decided that I was not going to talk about losing weight anymore. I was going to get off my ass and do something about it and let my new body do all the talking. I have very understanding and supportive friends but I know they are tired of hearing me talk how I'm going to do this, that, and the 3rd and then I actually gain weight!!! I mean come the fuck on...enough is enough right?
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